HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY (:

yay!!

went over to cwp's crystal jade for dinner and she paid for it. yea, one lousy birthday...



thats my lovely honey baby before we went out. can see him?

aiyah he's so damn black and the lighting sucks. whatever! i still love him. =p

at the restaurant.. (there were more photos but photobucket sucked.)

we got nothing better to do.


the cold dish which i ate like 3/4 of it. =p


more dishes! *saliva drips*


mummy is happy! =D

so we decided to pose...


NG!!


say cheese!


brother: eh you think what? funny ah?!


out of nowhere: ya lorh!

-.-"


sister: wahlao so emo for what? funny sia~


sister again: chey.. dont talk then don talk lah.. give me what face. =/


******

was up damn early to collect my report book and had kinda bad comments from my co-form teacher. like whatever. and then off to pek shan theng at bishan to pai my popo then to somewhere else i dont know cos i was sleeping all the while. =p

went back to school 30 minutes before choir starts and i fell asleep on my seat the moment we sit down for sectionals in my classroom. haha! dont know why but nobody woke me.

my day was real packed, always something to do, one right after another.

tiring ah!!

but i cant get to sleep!

cool right? -.-

;i am afraid




I Don't Feel Like Dancin' - Scissor Sisters

;i am afraid




yay!! mickey!! (:

have the sudden 'feel' to upload my dog's photo here. okay i cant think of a better word. -.-

but its probably edwin that made me wanna. haha!

;i am afraid


10.22pm ;

photobucket is trying to play games with me, dammit. so... no pictures for the moment.

aww... (haha! =p)

met up with lynn at vista point on 9 am and the urge for sunblock is so intense we skipped breakfast.

MUST NOT TURN DARK!

=/ for your info, i'll look real bad if i ever get tanned again. my tanned days are disasters, all happened during my primary school days. i tell you, i damn look like a indonesian maid if i ever turn dark ever ever again.

i swear i'll never ever again go in the sun without my sunblock. gosh i know i sound like a bimbo.

bo bian!

if you're me, you wanna look like indonesian maid ah? or filipino? vietnam?

i've got like so many comments on how much i look alike the people from every other asia country you can think of.

most discussed? 1st: china, 2nd: japan, 3rd: korea... followed by hong kong, taiwan and thailand

china!

i kena comments like 'cheena' before lorh! how 'cheena' can i get? i dont even know the meaning of being 'cheena'. -.-

and how in the hell did hong kong and taiwan pop out? dont they just look chinese? =/

11.31pm ;

photobucket is back!






lynn and i at the swimming complex (i love the captions like... omg shes so cute. haha!)

we random picked someone from my phonebook list then went over to mac at admiralty, near xiong xing, the lucky chosen one's place to have lunch. he came down because of us even though he just woke up. =p

he also cant stop saying, 'you 2 bo liao ah?' lol.

oh ya, i bought hair dye, blonde or something like that cos i got real irritated with my current hair colour. and the results are idiotic okay, like no colour! dye for what? now not black not brown liao lorh. big rubbish colour.

waste my $10. =/

mom's back today at around 5am? and she got my Bailey's back home safely. o=)



Ta-Dah!! eh... reminds me of Scissor Sisters's latest album.

but I don't feel like dancin', no sir, no dancin' today~ dont feel like dancin' dancin'~ even if i find nothing better to do~ dont feel like dancin~...

pardon, im on high mode. =p

and of course


Baby Ruth!

with

macadamias that only cost US$o.99!! like where to find in singapore?

LOL.

p.s. jianxing is a big fat liar. =/ give me sweets my foot. i dare you to poke me! bleh!

;i am afraid


The Best Moments In Life...

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being a part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. Accidentally hearing someone say somthing good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.
17. Feeling this buzz in your body when seeing this special someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU"
23. True friends come in the good times when we tell hem to, and come in the bad times without calling.


very true i must say.

spent the weekend at home doing nothing. played o2jam as usual and got to know Terence aka krane02jamer. LOL!

he's someone with character and he's been very nice trying to crap with me. even asked me to give up blogging and talk to him whenever i have problems instead of confiding to a wall where no one responds. haha! cute right. the thing is.. he lives in m'sia! like the main point is i dont know why i keep getting to know people there. and i pretty much communicate better with them as well. like i seldom chat with friends from my country. thats kinda weird dont you think. haha.

when being asked if i had problems for today, i stopped and looked at my heart for awhile, tried to listen to what it has to say and got to know that there aint anymore problems, no more difficulties nor worries to bother in life for now. and? its really meaningless. it sucks i tell you. you may grumble or make noise when problems make you breathless, or it may be pushing you real hard but imagine one day, without problems, everything's so quiet that got you afraid. its really scary, i can feel the pressure already.

im like weird...

so anyway, wonder why 3 of the above best moments in life are bold?

cause... those are the only 3 i get to enjoy for the past i dont know how long it has been days. pathetic?

imagine being me!

i have absolutely no reason, nothing to laugh about. i cant even laugh without a reason. theres no point. darn. =/ why cant life get better already?


oh ya, theres good news and bad news for me.

good news is, mom's coming back with my favourites Bailey's!! yay!! (:

...bad news? shes coming back.


p.s. anonymous mentioned in my tagboard that mr ivan lee went over to zhonghua instead of zhenghua, so where the hell did he go? =/

;i am afraid


ahhhh!!!!

everyone put my aeroplane today

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

=/ i hate my life..

;i am afraid


woke up exceptionally early today. jian xing was really sweet, he said im here im here and messaged to wake me up thinking there's school. holiday liao please!! haha, but thanks anyway. (:

have been listening to these 2 on repeat mode these few days. enjoy!


暖暖~


亲亲~

;i am afraid


25/10 ;

was quite a emotional day, had to change into our red choir tee and wait for the moment to step up on the stage for mrs song, our founding principal of woodgrove secondary school. oh man i'll miss her smile and all although we havent really talked before. i didnt cry when mr ivan lee went over to zhenghua! =/

choir members sat at the back of the hall for almost 3/4 of the time to wait for our turn and before we know it, we got up the stage and teachers were prepared with costumes to sing together with us, unknowingly, their voices covered ours.

but all i remember was seeing her cry for the first time, she brokedown when everyone stood up and sang 'you raise me up'. i was really touched, almost cried on stage. good thing i didnt.

but pk, angela and i couldnt control ourselves when her speech to the school was screened. like omfg we are crying. damn it was indeed a sad day, a day of separation. i hate such days.

prayers will be said and god bless her well. (:

*******

did nothing at home today. all i did was being a potato couch. like sian okay. i tried sending a good night message to him a few hours ago, like at around 10, hoping he'll reply. he did and i tell u, the simple good night message to him woke me up.

'huh.. sorry, but u are?' was all he said.

hello? you just asked me out a month ago, you did all those nice things to me half a year ago and now you are asking who i am?

off to hell you go.

you are already not the hero i know.. and you'll never be him again..

i was so disappointed.


imagine losing everything in just a moment, you reacted too slow to make them stay.
imagine everyone popping out wanting to enter your life at the same time and are alone to face it.
imagine...

what would you do?

;i am afraid


went for movie with wei feng moments ago and im back not yet tired. haven't eaten anything much the whole day and i dont feel abit hungry. how weird.

The Guardian was great. 5 stars for it please. i love the storyline, i love the ending of a show for the first time. so generally, i love everything about it. especially hot Ashton Kutcher



OH MY GOD! hahahaha~



and this other attractive leading actor, Kevin Costner. wah, if i go for old man i sure drool over him, seriously. =p



BEST SHOW THIS YEAR AFTER CLICK.

really! its the first time i cry for the love scene lorh. goodness gracious me.

so anyway, going to visit my popo tomorrow at the bishen temple. i miss her. im so disappointed in myself, i cant take it when death comes. like for example in the movie today, i cried because someone being loved died, someone so dear left them, when the merciless sea swallowed them and them gone. oh please why am i becoming like that? and when ending comes, i cried because Kevin was let go by his teammate who is played by Ashton.

he's gone! his wife cant find him! what!! why?!

ahh!! i dont get it! =/

gotta go to bed, its like 3.45am already.

;i am afraid


one of his colleagues got on the news yesterday on straits times and i happen to flip upon that and i finally know his work place is spelt as

THE SCARLET

i once thought its spelt as

THE CHARLOTTE

-.- big misunderstanding




pretty right? its a boutique hotel. its also the place we first met, where he made burger and onion rings for me. (:

anyway, have to reach school at 2. ciaos.

;i am afraid


promotion day ended and its friday! the day when i'll know if im gonna get promoted. one guy and one girl got retained.

AND I'M FREAKING NOT!! YAY!!

cool. (:


im bored so got this from fcukling, meme is cool. im cool. =p

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

anyone who's bored enough to do this deserves to be stabbed. enjoy!


hey andy darling, i dont know if you'll ever get to read this but i really have to say thanks.
you really made my day yesterday.

you came earlier and waited for me so i dont have to, you were patient with me, you looked out for me, you said that im cute when im not to make me happy, you helped me look for jobs, you told me about the not so good ladyboss at bugis, stopped me from working there, you bought bubble tea for me, introduced a game on your phone that made me so addicted, went into different boutiques and shops with me and some selling lingerine when you normally dont, went around looking for the white shorts i wanted but i got really picky.

the list goes on..

and, the confession really startled me, its really nice but im sorry. hope you get what i meant. if you've never got the chance to read this, then i guess i just have to answer and explain to you in person.

p.s. its a beautiful day, with guilt..

;i am afraid


the song 'You... I Am A Fool' by Unknown, yes i dont know who sang this, from the popular korean drama 'Princess Hours' was played right into my ears just as i write this. the indulgement followed by song 'Your In My Heart' by Rod Stewart while i continued watching 'My Lovely Sam Soon'. multi-tasking, haha!

I didn't know what day it was when you walked into the room
I said hello unnoticed
You said goodbye too soon
Breezing through the clientele
spinning yarns that were so lyrical
I really must confess right here
the attraction was purely physical
I took all those habits of yours
that in the beginning were hard to accept
Your fashion sense, Beardsly prints
I put down to experience
The big bosomed lady with the Dutch accent
who tried to change my point of view
Her ad lib lines were well rehearsed
but my heart cried out for you
Chorus:
You're in my heart, you're in my soul
You'll be my breath should I grow old
You are my lover, you're my best friend
You're in my soul
My love for you is immeasurable
My respect for you immense
You're ageless, timeless, lace and fineness
You're beauty and elegance
You're a rhapsody, a comedy
You're a symphony and a play
You're every love song ever written
But honey what do you see in me
(Chorus)
You're an essay in glamour
Please pardon the grammar
but you're every schoolboy's dream
You're Celtic, United, but baby I've decided
You're the best team I've ever seen
And there have been many affairs
Many times I've thought to leave
But I bite my lip and turn around
'cause you're the warmest thing I've ever found
(Chorus)

i cried, thinking over, wondering and reflecting my faults. my felts are not reflected from the song itself. they just came out unknowingly, unprepared.

there are good songs, songs im not really interested in, songs that move me, songs that made me replay that damned track for a uncountable times, songs that helped me to relieve every stress i had from the day. it helped me cry.

assembly was on in school and IPW was what i think the most dreaded program i've ever encountered, i've ever known until today. there was this presentation about the 2e1s going to Philippines helping the needy, they showed photos from the trip and sang 'Where I Belong'.

i swear in the name of Barney(haha!) that i almost cried. o.o
imagine crying over...

where i belong~ where i keep my.. (omg~ and starts wailing)
where dreams come true for (screams* SO POOR THING!)

wahh~!! x'O

oh god i should stop.

=/


2 days to promotion day..

;i am afraid


exam results are in, i pass 2 subjects. which definately consist of english (64) and mt (66/90). lousy marvin tan the cheaterbug passed science and i didnt. tsk.

to my surprise, im fighting for passing maths as i've got 45 and temporarily added 2 more cos theres still paper 2 to check if theres anymore marks.

IM GONNA PASS MATHS! OMG OMG OMG~

i dont know why but i have nothing special to talk about in my life. i cancelled the date with yencheng for her birthday and i dont know why. results are killing me, pressure is up and my period hasnt come. i dont know the reason. i have no single fucking idea why im doing anything at all.

went over to ichiban's after school and i'm so damn full.. i feel sick all of a sudden and cant breathe for a moment not long before i walked outta the washroom thereafter. that's my 3rd visit today. just had my 5th visit. ahh~ xO

this entry is so random. goodness.


have you kissed your parents today? (:

;i am afraid


finally the last paper, over heard that only 6 passed maths and the majority failed eng. scary.. i saw his look alike again after that. i wonder of his strange glare at me, dont know what it means. probably because they look too damn alike that i mind when there's actually nothing. haha.
oh ya, and i just finished watching '宫(princess hour)'. it was fantastic, i wonder why the leads rejected to continue filming the 2nd. heard some other people will take over. i wonder how it'll turn out.

read this over at fcukling's. i really wonder why the adults or even us in our age dont think like them.. why cant love be just feeling content when knowing he's doing fine?

i am not...

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy -age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"
Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen,"
Bobby - age 7

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore,"
Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is more handsome than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."
Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget,"
Jessica - age 8

andy last minute put me aeroplane saying he has something on. whatever. =/

;i am afraid


im being very nice to translate yi neng jing's work for you guys who dont know how to read chinese. its kinda bad lah, like dont know to link everything together in english, cant do direct translate also. will mess things up. i cant help!! must share all these wonderful works. haha! quoted everything from her, wanted to post this up because i miss my hero. (:

***
from: someone you have forgotton

我很愛你
i really love you
我的每一個呼吸都在告訴我
every breath i take is telling me
胸口的起伏也是愛的回應
the heartbeat i felt is love's reply
雖然你不知道
you didnt know
但是
but
就算你不愛我
even if you dont love me,
我也還是會愛你
i will still love you
這是一種命定
this is destiny made
從第一眼起
from the first sight
我就知道
i know
我會愛你
i will love you
我不掙扎
i wont struggle
讓自己的心感受這份愛的來臨
to let this love come into me
經過這麼久的時間
after so long,
這份愛起起伏伏
it went through ups and downs
可是當靜下來回想
but when i think over it
竟然還都是甜蜜
everything is actually sweet
你說過的笑話我到現在都還想笑
i still laugh at your jokes
我沒有辦法去把你想的太壞
i still cant think of you as someone bad
雖然你那麼吝嗇於表達
although you were selfish with your words
但我想起你卻是滿滿的歡喜
but its all happiness when i think of you
我注定
im destined
這輩子都要輸給你
to lose to you my entire life
不要想不好的事
dont think of bad encounters you had
你好好的
be good
到哪裡都好
be where ever you are
我都會祝福你
i will wish you well
我知道你會有美好的未來
i know you have a bright future
只要你一直像現在這樣
just be like what you always were
努力、拼命、忍讓
hardworking, filled with fighting spirit, forgiving
你就一定會比現在還成大器
you will be much successful
無論如何
no matter what,
我在這個遙遠的城市裡
from far away,
深深的
deep in my heart
想念你…祝福你…
miss you... good luck...

加油... ^^

to: my hero

;i am afraid


people who can read chinese please read. im so in love with yi neng jing's work, she can write so well. omg~

***
即使是呼吸的那麼輕，卻還是能感覺到疼痛。

我的疼痛沒有藥可治療，那是一種幻象，因你而起也因你而滅。

認識你以後，我的歡喜悲傷便一直被你左右，我像一個不被疼愛的孩子，癡癡的渴望你能對我說愛我，但你始終不說，你始終是嚴厲的對我，要我更愛你後你才開始愛我。

我真的…真的沒有辦法再給了啊…你不知道嗎？

戀愛不是該快樂嗎？為甚麼我總是在哭？我的不被滿足讓自己像不會游泳的墜海者，拼命張開四肢想緊緊抓牢甚麼，卻終於只是費盡了力氣，而變的軟弱地淹沒在海底。

而我也只能是不停的寫，靠著書寫來麻痺自己，相信自己只是太敏感的心在作怪，其實甚麼也沒有發生。

你愛我嗎？我已經不敢問了。這麼長的時間裡，每當我問你，你總是不願意回答，好像這樣的三個字會變成一種承諾，你將會變成我的救生員，必須在愛裡照顧我，但你自己都還是個孩子，怎麼會學會照顧？

我注定要把你、把我們都寫成一本本的書，書寫是遺忘，當我寫完，我的疼痛變得到治療，那一本本的書都是我的病歷表，而病源從來沒有被拔起過。我任自己得到這樣的絕症，還滿心歡喜的感激著。

寫完這一些字，我能好一點嗎？而你彷如病菌被隔離般的被我隔離嗎？也許一切該等我寫完再說，但是盡頭在哪裡？

你是我書寫的理由，也是我在書寫時亟欲掙脫的對象，你的存在既快樂且疼痛，一如創作，字從我身體裡湧起，我愛你如此不可自控。

就讓我繼續疼痛，我願意用疼痛來換取愛你的理由，也是我無法不寫的理由，只願當你看完這些因愛而起的文字時，能終於願意對我說：你愛我。

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每當聽不見你的聲音，我便開始靜默。無聲的手機像沈在深深的海底，埋入軟沙中，每一滴海水都是我的眼淚。

愛著你的我，就像不會爬行至陸地的人魚，只能在海水裡潛泳。泳著自己的淚水，鹹的讓自己無法睜開雙眼。

於是我開始走路，大量的走，唯有走的時候我感覺身邊一切，然後漸漸的遺忘了我。我將手機關上，除了這個世界的雜聲外，我不想說話也不想傾聽，我關閉自己，讓自己用最低的條件存活。

但最低的條件是甚麼？難道就是這樣的去愛？

快樂、憂傷、疼痛、狂喜，這樣的形容詞沒有一個是屬於我。我安安靜靜，簡化自己變成一具冬眠般活著但沒有思想的生物。不去思考你和我，我就不會痛，只有不會痛，我才能繼續愛你。

街上熱鬧異常，週末的夜晚每個人都有去向，我一直往前走，沒有人懷疑我的堅定。

真不知道為甚麼要這樣的愛上你。

與你給我的，沒有一樣是我熟識的。你帶來那一切挑戰，我都幾乎無法承受。你給我的震撼與學習，讓我幾乎重新的活過一次。我一直以為自己在愛情裡很晚熟，所以我才能不輕易放手。我不會衡量對錯或傷害，我只知道愛，並且一直往前衝，直到頭破血流。我還是笑著說：原來這是愛你所要學會的代價。

我心甘情願的承受，我心甘情願。

這樣的靜默該如何打破，我想當我學會愛你的時候，也許也是我離開的時候。因為那時候我才終於明白你愛的是你自己，而我應該要學會珍愛自我，我等待著那一天的來臨，然後努力不掉淚的離開。如果我要走，你是不是不會留我？

夜深了，我走了一天，身體疼痛，將自己泡在香蜂草的浴水裡，讓汗滑過胸口，然後包裹好自己的身體和心，回到床上我要睡了。希望這世界沒有任何人吵我，也希望我的心也能真正的在沈睡裡靜默。


so anyway, went over to the natas tour fair at the expo last sat.

heres a brief preview with random pictures. others will be up asap. im busy alright, busy studying. =p













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;i am afraid